Really sad but trying to think positive

So 4 days ago I found out that a very near and dear friend of mine passed away on Dec 11. He was my husband's karate instructor and my self defense instructor. Yes he was old in age and his health has been very poor for a long time but everyone loved him. He always referred to me as one of his daughters. The day after he passed away I was supposed to start my period. Well I still haven't started and now I'm 5days late. I'm hoping and praying to be pregnant. He always asked when I was going to give him Grandkids. I'm hoping that this is a sign from him saying that he's always going to be there. He told me once shortly after my miscarriage years ago that when he died he was going to send me my angel. I am really hoping that happened now. I told my husband that when we finally have a child they were going to be named after our friend. I wish you were still alive. Rest In Peace Grandmaster Alan Reyes! We all love you. 💞