How to get help

Mommas, how did you get help? Im ashamed. I’m at such a low point in my life. I’m angry, I’m sad, I’m depressed. I’m going through an awful breakup and the guy is also the father of my child. He is so toxic, verbally and mentally abusive, and one time physically abusive. He’s an expert at being a narcissist and I just finally had enough of his shit and left him but even when we’re not together anymore he still manages to bring me down. I hate my life, my baby girl is what keeps me going but now a days I’m so exhausted from trying to stay positive and after being put down for so many years you start to believe it is all your fault. I hate to admit but more days than usual I just want to end my life. My baby girl deserves better, a stronger mother that can stand up for herself. I just can’t be that woman anymore and she deserves better.