Upset with the world

So honestly I hate anyone that’s pregnant or have a baby I’m rude to them etc and I honestly don’t care I lost my daughter at 18 +4 and the doctors couldn’t tell me why everything was fine I didn’t have an infection and the placenta was fine just said sometimes it happens so I’m angry at everyone and hate everyone and I’m so upset etc with god like he took my child but give up fit people kids it just makes me upset