Heartbroken

Got three very faint positives this past week, been trying for about 5 months now so I was over the moon and wanted to surprise my husband... I waited a couple days because digitals were still coming up not pregnant so two days later I take both test a FR & CBD and both negative!! I went to get a blood test but I’m starting to spot and I just have a feeling I’m not now.. 😓 I ended up telling my husband anyway before I re tested and he was treating me like a queen!!!!!! Until I told him that the lines weren’t popping up anymore and I don’t think it stuck this time around, and now he’s back to being his usual distant self. Really makes me second guess my worth and why can’t I carry a baby if it’s been so easy for me to do so in the past. I feel like I’m failing myself, I’m failing my husband, and I just don’t know what to do about it