Was is rape?

I had this bf and I loved him so much but he broke up with me and I still can’t get my head around what happened or what to classify it as. Basically it was Halloween 2019 (31st October) we were watching Netflix and I started to give him a hj and then he stopped the movie and said ok there’s something I wanna do and I asked what it was and he said he wanted to have sex without a condom. I said no it’s a bad idea then he begged and said it would be quick then I said no again and then he said it will be fine it will quick I really want to do it and I said no again then he kept saying please over and over again til I said fine, he knew I didn’t want to do it and he didn’t care. Than later that day I had an idea to give him a lap dance and so I did then I said I didn’t want to anymore then he kept asking and asking but I just kept saying no then he asked me to take off my pants and I repeatedly said no then he undid the stings and started to pull my pants down then I stopped him and left my room. But this wasn’t the first time he had done something like this, once we were at a sleepover for a friends bday and so we were sleeping together and he put my hand on his dick and pulled it out but I said it wasn’t a good idea because our friends would see and fair enough they did but he didn’t care and he did that 2 more times that night. There’s a lot more but I won’t waste anymore time. I just can’t get past this and Idk what to do.

Let me just say this it was unwanted sex and we’re both underaged so idk. But let me know your thoughts