How do I even...

Y’all so the man I was interested in doesn’t feel ready for a relationship (which is ok and I’m not pursuing him, even though I really want to). I want my first boyfriend (I’m 15 and do feel ready) to be a good one. Not perfect, and maybe not my first love. But how the ef does one even look for a boyfriend?! I’m homeschooled so I don’t go to a real achool, and only have my co-op class friends. One of them is a great guy but my other friend is already pursuing him. None of the guys at my church (I’m Christian) are Either 1. Single 2. Even a good option at all (like one of them is my friends brother, or one of them is a player)

And I’m also interested in girls but same sex attraction is seen as a sin here (Deep South) and at that no one is single AND part of the LGBTQ+.