The year 2019 was a bittersweet year for me. I was/still am grieving over my second loss. After my second ultrasound in January, I learned some sad news: I have ovarian cysts and I am infertile. I know many women beat the odds, but I am too scared to have another loss. I can’t go through such heartache again. My baby daddy and I had a huge fight over him lying and making excuses (as usual) and I was NOT flying over 5,000 miles to be disrespected like that. That’s when I put my foot down and realized I didn’t deserve how I’ve been treated during that whole mess....after I said some choice words. That’s why I went to the Dominican instead of Hawaii. The day before I left for the Dominican, I was diagnosed with a thyroid problem called Hashimoto’s Disease. It’s not deadly but it increases by 5% every year and it can cause a lot of health problems. In October, I bought a house, I was blessed to see another year and moreso blessed to have a full scholarship to go a Christian retreat in Texas for women who had miscarriages, stillbirths, etc. Going there was hard but I’m so happy I went because for the first time, I felt like I had a support system. I can’t thank those amazing women enough. Today, I found out that I’m FINALLY able to graduate from Rowan University. My plan is to work as a full-time substitute teacher a little while longer to put a dent in my student loans and I would like to go back to school for my teacher’s cert as my degrees are for my subject matter. I’m PRAYING 2020 will be better.