Love and light

Finally my new partner and I are TTC. 41 and I feel so helpless tracking this, charting, that, don’t eat this, don’t do that...my cycle is due tomorrow and I’m praying it doesn’t come and it’s a baby. I want this so badly for us. It would be my 4th child and a new beginning for me after leaving a really bad relationship. I’m so happy and in love and this man has proved it every step of the way in our 6 years of us. I feel like finding ovulation at this point is so hard and testing every other day is giving me a headache...what to do? I’m asking for love and light and baby dust! My heart needs it for both of us!!! Just venting.....:.