I don’t know how to talk to him in person!!!!

Ahh Ik I may sound pathetic but here it goes.

*This is going to be very long so I if u reed it, thank u soo much 💕🥺 and if u have any advice I would really a appreciate it*

I’m 15 and I started texting this guy that’s friends with my friends. We’ve been texting for over a month and it’s been good

I see him around in school and he sometimes hangs around with me and my friends, we’ve said the casual hey and bye and there have been some occasions in which we have had a very short conversation but I get reallyyyyy awkward, shy and I don’t know how to keep up conversation with him. Since we see each other in school and we are always texting we have talked about this and I try to explain to him that it’s not that I don’t want to talk to him, I just get really anxious and shy. Idk why this happens and why I can’t just have a regular conversation with him like any of my other friends. He’s even suggested to talk on the phone before but Ik that if I even try to do that I will fail miserably and make a fool out of myself (my brain likes creates these huge scenarios in my head of many ways things can go bad or that he won’t actually like talking to me otp as in texting)

I have talked about this with him, or should I say texted about him about this, and the fact that I’m really insecure but all he tells me is that I need to not overthink it and to be myself that it will be ok but although I really do what to something in the back of my head isn’t allowing me to do so which results in me getting upset that I can’t do such a simple thing as to talk to him. He’s also kinda shy which makes this just a bit more difficult.

There was this one time where I went up to him and tried talking, it took me a whole lot of convincing towards myself but even by doing that I just acted in the moment and when I tell u my hands were shaking and sweating, and as always my leg would stop bouncing ( we where sitting down btw) even once I sarted talking to him I could feel my face turn red but I did it, sadly it didn’t last long but idk what else to try and be able to have a full conversation without things being weird on my part.

I really need someone to talk to about this because I feel really weird talking about this with my friends as I don’t want to annoy them and for the same reason of them knowing the guy :)

- Again if u read this thank u for reading❣️🥺