I keep saying I’m gonna pretend like I don’t care but then...

It’s really hard to pretend to not care to try and get pregnant faster after you already lost one baby. I wanna quit OPKs I wanna quit symptom spotting I wanna quit caring and it’s hard. Now my periods are irregular I’ve tried OPKs to track ovulation did the deed nothing happens and that was the third time tracking ovulation perfect with no BFP. Now 14dpo no BFP no period because I’m irregular.. now what? What am I suppose to do. I feel like I’ll never be able to get pregnant again let alone have a sticky bean. March will be a full year of trying and by March I will be scheduling for a wellness check to make sure everything is still ok down there and honestly I may see the doctor sooner. It’s hard not to stress it’s hard not to cry but I know something isn’t right. Does anyone have any suggestions on how to conceive with an irregular cycle besides OPKs? I’m taking prenatals plus 1mg of folic acid that my doctor proscribed after the miscarriage last year.. I’m breaking inside ladies I know it’s only been about a year but this shit is draining 😓