I wish...

I would get pregnant this month and have a happy healthy child if nothing else than to be able to say that I’m another woman in her 40s that did. I’m so tired of being “too old.” It’s so unfair that I didn’t meet my match and get married until I was 36. That I chose an education and career first. That I realized I was too selfish and not financially stable enough in my 20s for a child - never mind that the father would not still be my partner. That I got all of the “partying” out of my system and have no interest in much of a social life and prefer to stay at home nights and weekends with my spouse and God, universe, who or whatever willing - a child. I guess if it’s meant to be, it’ll happen, and if not, sobeit, because I’m getting to that point where I need closure on the subject. I wish all of you ladies in your 40s ttc all the best. 😘