I had sex with my ex.

The moment it was over, I walked out of the room and started crying. I dont want to regret it because that’s not good for a person and because I shouldn’t feel such a thing.. but I regret it so much.

It’s just sex right? Who cares? I do apparently.

He came over, saying he wanted to catch up with each other and talk. When he came over, we laid in bed and did just that. I then asked what he wanted to do.. and he kissed me.

I feel so weak and disgusting. I feel disgusted with myself for kissing him back and then going further. Im on b/c so we didn’t even use protection and I feel like having that finish in me just makes it SO much worse. I dont know why.

Things happened so fast and I lost myself. Now, I feel absolutely horrible and lost and gross and I don’t know what to do with myself.

Has anyone done the same..? Felt the same..? Should I feel guilty? Any help or advice would be so, so appreciated. Thank you.