In my feelings today 😵

My husband of two years has an addiction.. it drives me crazy! How do girls make themselves feel good? I look and feel so fat in everything.. I literally want to stop eating.. I’m not working or nothing. I feel so depressed.. im a stay at home mom of one.. I am so depressed, and I have no friends! All my “high school friends” are working and going to college! What am I suppose to do? I wanna talk to my husband but we don’t usually see eye to eye sometimes.. I just need a friend to talk to besides my family.. I’m sad and just depressed! My husband doesn’t help. He senses when things are wrong with me but I brush it off.. I hate feeling this way!! Thanks..