In love

My bestfriend of two years and I kissed. I loved him before but now I'm sure I do. He says he likes me but doesn't want a relationship and I keep hooking up with him I just feel comfortable with him he has been the first guy to see me shirtless the first guy I gave head too (not that it went to well) but I don't know what to do because im so head over heals for someone who doesn't wanna date me