What to do?

Okay this pregnancy has been absolute hell.

Fast back story,

We tried for 2 years, finally got pregnant after my tubes were cleared and I was on chlomid. I’ve lost 3 other babies, one at 16 weeks, one at 7, and one at 8.

At 7 weeks they said they thought my cervix was too short.

At 18 weeks we found out that we were having a boy! (Yay) however he was being rude and wouldn’t turn his face to us.

At 20 weeks we had another ultrasound and they discovered a cleft lip, but his palate looked to be okay and in tact (the hard palate. We were told it was subject to change as the baby gets bigger.)

At 23 + 3 I got a yeast infection from my uti antibiotics, and I went to labor and delivery. I had been diagnosed with an incompetent cervix, a really thin one at that. I called the on call doctor before I took my antibiotic that Sunday, and he said not to take it and to head into labor and delivery. My chart was marked no for dyflucan due to the severe case of incompetent cervix I have. The nurse didn’t listen to me and ignored my chart and in the rush of things (I didn’t know I could decline taking the meds) they gave me an iv with the meds for the uti, and then gave me 150 of dyflucan. I left crying.

At 23+ 5 I went into preterm labor, I was 1.2 mm thick, 60% effaced, and 3.5 cm dilated. They gave me the steroid shots, magnesium, and then I was hospitalized for 4 days. We finally went home when my cervix went back to 2.2 mm, and I was 2 cm dilated. I was put on bed rest.

At 28 weeks I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes. They said if by 33 weeks I was still not able to control my GD even with insulin, I’d be set up to be induced between 34-35 weeks.

At 32 + 5, I went into preterm labor again. Was hospitalized for a week, and they gave me the shots again. Due to my GD they said the shots would make my blood sugar go crazy. They said I wasn’t leaving till he came. I was ready. He was estimated to be weighing in at over 5 pounds already. He was doing super great, they said they wouldn’t try to stop my labor after the second shot was given. But they did stop it and after 8 days I was sent home because my blood sugar was finally back to normal. I was on an iv insulin drip, constant. I was given insulin at night and with every single meal. They got my numbers back to “ normal” and then they sent me home Frustrated, and upset. The next morning my blood sugar was back to abnormal.

Now, Wednesday (34 weeks) they decided to test my blood when I went into labor and delivery to have a yeast infection /bv checked. Now I had made an appt, with the on call doctor because my doctor was in surgery. The on call doctor didn’t wanna deal with me so she sent me to l&d. There I told them (like I told the diabetes nurse on monday) that I had not had access to my new insulin due to the insane cost since my insurance reset on the new year. That accompanied with my cereal I had eaten less than 30 min before I got there, I knew it was going to be High. They tested my blood 45 min after I had started eating my cereal. I didn’t get a chance to take my meal time insulin, because they wouldn’t let me. So again it was gonna be high. They tested me and it was high. I said normally I wait two hours after taking my insulin and then I get my numbers and they all said no.

They all started freaking out and saying that my blood was too high. I said again it goes down I JUST ate. They came back 35 min later (hour and 5 after I first started eating.) and tested me again and it had gone down significantly. They gave me 2 units of insulin (which is 4 less than I take with breakfast) and then they said “we are admitting you.” I said no. I said unless youre inducing me I’m not being admitted.

The nurse then sat there and tried to make me feel bad, saying that they need to put an iv in me and give me insulin. I got all the financial issues figured out while I waited and I said no again. I asked them if I was going to stay till I delivered or just till my numbers were back down and they said till my numbers are back down.

So I said “let me run you a scenario. You’ll admit me, give me insulin at insane amounts. 3 different ways. Then you’ll see my numbers go down for a day and send me home. And then the very next day my numbers Will be high again. Then what?” The nurses just stood there. They checked my blood again and it was back down. Not normal but normal for me. I left after that, now here’s my dilemma.

Should I call my doctor on Monday and ask her to induce me/figure something out? I’m getting frustrated because no matter how much insulin I take I’m highly resistant right now. They made it out to sound like I was going to be killing my baby but they refuse to take him out? I can’t keep affording mentally financially and physically to get admitted and then discharged and then admitted then discharged again.

What should I do if she says no? I mean he weighed in at over 6 pounds on Tuesday, he has been breathing super well at all of his ultrasounds, and he has been having good movement.

I’ll be 35 weeks on Wednesday, I know I’m only 2 weeks from full term but I honestly don’t even know what to do. They keep saying I’m gonna make him still birth by not being admitted for a few days to bring my blood down. But unless I’m staying till he’s born it doesn’t make any sense to keep going back and forth back and forth