How do I react?

Possible trigger warning. So last night... the husband and I were getting ready to have sex, I am not on birth control currently so we always use condoms. We were both super into it and what not so I told him to go grab a condom, but he didn’t. He scooted down and put his dick at the opening of my vagina and I started pushing him off of me but he wouldn’t let me and I told him no and he started forcing himself inside of me. I started to panic, and I kept saying “no, please no” and kept pushing on his chest trying to get him off of me but he kept shoving himself inside of me. He wouldn’t listen. I know it’s misleading because I gave him consent but not without a condom and he didn’t listen when I said no. After he realized how upset I was he took himself out of me and said “everything’s gonna be okay”...but I’m still super strung I don’t know what to do. I have been raped before so maybe my PTSD is just getting to my head? It’s been awkward this entire morning and I had nightmares about it but I feel bad for being upset over it...