Miserable

Hey ladies...so I’m 13 weeks and 3 days and I am absolutely miserable. Morning sickness has gotten better but my body aches and pain and exhaustion is unbearable. I also have fibromyalgia which does not help either of those symptoms as I have them even when I’m not pregnant- but not to this severity. Also headaches every single day. On days I don’t have to drag my body to work I literally stay in bed all day. I only get up to eat and go pee. And it’s making me so depressed- another thing I already struggled with prior to pregnancy. Without sounding ridiculous I literally feel like I’m dying everyday- my body feels zombie like. I can’t literally sleep for 20 hours and still feel exhausted. I don’t feel like myself and it makes me cry everyday. I just want to scream. I’m so thankful for my healthy daughter and pregnancy but this is unbearable. Everyone says it gets better second trimester and you get all this energy but I haven’t. Everyday I feel more and more tired and uncomfortable. It’s to the point that it’s making me have suicidal thoughts. I really need advice and help bc as amazing as my husband is he doesn’t truly understand what I’m going through. And I don’t see my doctor for another 2 weeks.