I dont want to breastfeed and I feel bad about it.

I absolutely hate it, I just had my 2nd baby a little over a week ago and I remember now why I never went through with it for longer than a month with my first. I get intense panic attacks while breastfeeding and it turns into negative feelings, by the time I feel okay then baby is hungry again. Its completely mentally overwhelming, especially in the middle of the night on no sleep. Everyone keeps asking me if I'm still breastfeeding or telling me how I should keep going with it and etc so I feel like I need to keep going because theres this expectation of me.