Self Awareness and Self Care

So I have gone through some highs and lows in life, and I always was pretty active and “athletic”, played sports and worked out. I was in a very toxic relationship where I pushed myself to extremes and attempted to “compete” because I thought it would make me the “perfect” girl but that wasn’t enough nor was it healthy. I ultimately made one of my best decisions to leave that loser and found my own way and happiness but I still struggle because I am heavier than I ever have been and I am not sure if I hold some sort of resentment to the gym but I just haven’t been able to get back into it and seeing myself sometimes truly puts me in a depression because I compare myself to a different time but I have to remember I am in a much better place mentally and as long as I’m working on the physical it’s progress! I also started using these all natural supplements from ItWorks! and I swear by them. It sounds shallow because my appearance shouldn’t mean soooo much but I like to take care of myself and feel good physically and mentally and being comfortable in my own skin is good for me mentally so they just go hand in hand PLUS being active again has helped me not being as tired all the time and I feel much better as a whole. I am so happy I found something to help me find my groove again! They have an array of products, beauty, and health line and I only do 30-45min a day cardio and usually full body circuit training until I feel I’m ready to lift weights again. I am just happy I am motivated and being consistent. Balance this time around is key because I know I am learning to love myself and my shape and also enjoying my life and eating and having drinks sometimes so I need to learn it’s not 1 extreme or the other! If you need some motivation/inspiration or a good push to get going let me know, we can chat!!

THROWBACK! (2014) Unhealthy mentally and physically.

NOW (2019)

PS- I’m also in a much healthier relationship, with someone who pushes and supports me instead of drives insecurities into me both verbally and by cheating on me! You deserve all the happiness, goes for men and women, no1 should be tearing you down.