I should've left him in October.

My husband was acting suspicious for a few weeks. Leaving for work earlier and earlier. Always taking his phone with him and hiding it.

Then on Instagram he was recommended to me ( he's never had it) and he only had 1 follower 1 following. I knew something was up. I stole his phone while he was sleeping and found this. Conversations with his coworker, nightshifts.

I was shaking and my intestines were coiling with rage... And righteous indignation.

He had been picking her up for work in MY car for 2 weeks. Fantasizing about fucking her in the walk-in freezer. Using our cute lines about hugging feeling like recharging our batteries. I was heart broken but i just couldn't cry. I was angry and devastated, but not sad.

I threatened to leave. I'd take the baby and he'd take the dog and we'd discuss it all later. I don't know why I couldn't. We've been together for 8.5 years. We have a 1 year old (then 10mo). We KNOW each other and are so similar.

He promised that i meant the world to him, that this was the only thing that's real. Apparently he had broken it off and stopped talking to her 2 weeks prior. but if anything she probably did. He said he was stupid but proud of himself for stopping, that he never could have lived with himself.

That was 2 weeks before Halloween.

Skip forward to Christmas.

My store was in liquidation and i was working a 2nd job. He was never sleeping more than 5 hours a day. How does he have time to cheat? How does he have energy to pursue other women?

The same fucking girl... Different name same face.

He claimed he was just being friendly because she finally left her abusive husband. She's already with another dude. I said oh I'm so sorry she didn't pick you. Still waiting in the wings?

He was also texting other girls on snap chat and doublelist... And old co-workers.

He said again that it meant nothing, he was just sad and lonely and bored. We agreed we both need therapy, individually and together. He said he would stop being a piece of shit.

I told him i didn't want him talking to her. He never listens to me.

I found this yesterday.

This is obviously flirty. How could it not be. She's gone for 2 weeks thank gourd, but he obviously misses her and wants her to think about him.

I hate this woman. I hate him more. He said most of the incriminating things in all these texts. He keeps thinking about her and going after her.

He keeps LYING.

I have to leave. It's going to be the hardest saddest thing but i can't stop thinking about her and i don't love him like i used to.

Why is he such a fucking dumbass?!