January 3rd at 2:40am woke up having a dream that no one would likebto be dreaming of having a miscarriage that same day when i woke up i was crying and worried and said "ok its just a dream" and went back to sleep.....i then wake up around 9 ish i get up i go on the potty and start freaking out because i was bleeding and decided to go to the ER for me to know that everything was right after having that same day a bad dream, i go and they checked me and they did an ultrasound and babys heartbeat was good and they told me that it was just normal to bleed and that i had a UTI they prescribed some Medication and tooked them for a week that day i went to ER doctors told me that baby was 6 weeks and 3 days......i was happy that my baby was ok and all i had to do is take medication that they gave me for UTI and happy with my pregnancy for becoming a mom for the 3rd time.......

Now today 1-22-20 i had my first appointment at 9:15am feeling so happy and ready to see my baby how the baby is doing ect. What a mom feels right i get checked up and then my doctor take me to the ultrasound room and baby was so deep that it was hard to see for me to be 9 weeks she then did vaginal ultrasound and i was able to take a look much better to see my baby and my husband was there all happy but then didnt hear the heartbeat was hard for my doctor and she then scheduled an appointment this same day at the hospital since i was in the clinic so i got sent to the hospital and went for another ultrasound apt. Was at 11am got there did the same thing what my doctor did and all i had to do is just wait for my results.

At 2:30pm that when my doctor calls me to tell me about the result the first thing she asked me was if they told me anything and i reaponded to her that they didnt ao thats when she tells me that she is so sorry to tell me the news and i started crying knowing what i had thought about how my morning was and started crying and she told me sorry for the loss of my baby that my babys heart stopped 2 weeks ago by calculating my baby was 7 weeks and i feel so heartbroken knowing that my baby thats still inside of me ita not alive and that i will not be able to feel my baby and get to meet my baby and hold my baby and kiss my baby ect. 💔😢 tomorrow i will get a call to tell my doctor what my decision will be for my baby to be taken out and havent decided yet but will see for tomorrow whats best for me and now i will have a guardian angel will always love my baby no matter what until i die its the first time that happens to me and its so hurtful but now i know that i have someone who will watch over me and my 2 boys and my hubby