Why me God?

I’m so fkn over it. Why me?! Why me god?! Wtf did I do to deserve this shit? All my life has been devoted to you. I served you from the day that I was born. I believed in you. But why me? You know it’s a long distance relationship!!! I see him ONCE a year!! Why me?! Why why why.... why do you make me feel less of a women???? There is PEOPLE out there killing their own babies and throwing them away to get rid of them. WHY ME?! I’m humble. I never dreamt or asked for anything big but a small healthy happy family. But despite everything I can never hate you. I can never lose faith in you. My man is all I have left. Oh god, why me?! 😢💔