TW!! I hate them .

Every time I get a cold sore I’m reminded of my cousin raping me while he had one on his mouth and made sure to make me kiss him . The first time I had one and he seen it he whispered in my ear “ now no one will love you “ I’ve been so ashamed of them my whole life . Every time I get one I get so depressed . I just want to stay in bed until it goes away , but I can’t . I just want them and those memories gone . And having one right now is just the icing on the cake to a terrible month I’ve been having .