Talking

So I don't even know where to start ladies, I don't know what subject to put.

Last night I laid in bed chatting to my husband, I went back to work when mam daughter was 4 month old, part time for a few hours. We'd just got a new house and needed the money.

I laid and told how I felt judged by the people at work and my friends and I found myself telling him how I thought maternity leave (uk) would be different. I'd spent time with my mam, my friends and meet new people who were also new mums. But I didn't. That wasn't what it was like. I tried baby groups and social events but just didn't meet anyone, as most people had come in pairs.

Before I knew it, I was laid next to him crying quietly so he couldn't hear me. I haven't felt I could talk to anyone about it.

If I have another baby, I don't think I could do the 9 month maternity leave.

Why do I feel this way? What's wrong with me?

My little girl is amazing, she really is my world.

I now work full time, 9 to 5 Monday to Friday