This is really long so I apologize in advance.

So me and my now ex bf decided to take a break because we we’re drifting apart and we both needed to sort things out separately and he reacted to one of my friends saying that he thought he liked me in a really bad way and he didn’t handle the situation properly. Then we agreed that we would see each other once a week to try and work on our relationship so we could get back together but then he told me that he wasn’t ready to be in a relationship and then I told him that I don’t think I can stay friends with him because it hurts to not be with him and that I think that I have to leave him alone completely until he’s ready to be in a relationship again. I want to be there for him as much as I can but it’s so hard to keep that boundary. I know for a fact that I love him because I’ve never been happier than when I’m with him and haven’t felt this way before in a relationship and I don’t even find other people attractive anymore and I not only love him but his entire family. So I not only lost my best friend but I lost what I considered my family. I literally wanted to spend the rest of my life with him and now I don’t have him and I have separation anxiety from him and it’s the hardest thing I’ve had to go through and I’ve been through so much. I want to meet up with him so we can talk and have more of an understanding of each other and the situation but idk if I should do that.

What should I do?