*I identify fully as a female.*

So I always thought I was straight. Previously, I have only had crushes on males. Sometimes, if I was with a girl I liked, I would think, “oh she’s cute and I like her,” but it never went past that.

This past weekend, I had a friend over. She is female, but is more tom-boyish, I guess. She has short hair and dresses male. I have no idea what her sexuality is, but I wouldn’t be surprised if she wasn’t straight.

We went into town and went shopping and got food, etc. As a joke, with her permission, I posted a blurry picture of her on my Snapchat story that said “first date, kinda nervous.” Because the picture was blurry and of her looks, as well as the fact that she doesn’t go to my school, I convinced some people that she was my boyfriend. We kept on with the joke, so I had to pretend she was my boyfriend in different Snapchat conversations. So I spent a good two hours talking as if she my boyfriend. Anyway. As the night went on everyone went to bed except us. We were watching Netflix. We both were sitting on the floor next to each other.

And you know how this goes... her leg was pressed against mine. And I liked it. I couldn’t tell what she was thinking, but it felt a bit tense. My foot fell asleep, but I didn’t move it because I liked her leg touching mine. We kept watching for an hour and then went to bed.

If that had been it, I still would of been questioning, but maybe not as much. In addition to that, the whole weekend, we were always together. She was always close to me, and was always careful to be with me. I felt like she was waiting to tell me something, but when I asked, she said no. I shouldn’t be surprised.

The combo of touching and staying close is confusing me. I am not sure if I am straight, bisexual, or pansexual. I’ve never had a close relationship with anyone who identifies other than male or female, so not totally sure about bisexual vs pan.

Oh: I fully support the LGBTQ+ community, and I have done my research about different sexualities.

I am posting to this page because I am seeking advice. Please help me, I can’t stop thinking about her or this whole thing.

EDIT:

I talked to her and she’s totally okay with me liking her. I am unsure where she stands about me, but I guess I’ll find out. Now it’s been a week since she was over and I wanna see her again. And I do like her.