What do I do??

I’ve been with my boyfriend for years now.

He’s the only person I’ve been with sexually so I have no prior experience.

Over the years during my period, I have tried to give him blow jobs or hand jobs to keep him happy but I’m incredibly bad at them.

I thought I’d get better with more practice but I haven’t so I’ve come to the point where I’m unmotivated to do them.

When my period rolls around, he consistently begs for a hand job or a blow job saying he never gets them anymore and thinks he “deserves” them and when I don’t give him one he turns into a total asshole. Ignores my calls. Doesn’t want to hang out after work, whatever it may be.

I find it childish and it is starting to REALLY annoy me and strain our relationship. I’m on my period, bloated, bleeding, annoyed, feeling unsexy and unaroused, why does he NEED to get off???

I’ve told him how I feel and he just says things like “so... you could still just do it for me” I don’t know. I’m very annoyed by this. Maybe because I’m already automatically annoyed with my period as it is but I don’t know what to do.

I have talked to him about not being the right woman for him since I cannot please him the way he wants and he says he loves me but continuously complains?? I don’t get it. I don’t know what to do/say.