Twins 😲

So i can't believe i am having twins. Identical at that. But the thing is...my stress level with my autistic 5 year old is so high that sometimes i think i wont make it through this pregnancy. I only wanted one more baby and for it to be a girl. Then i was tying my tubes because i already have 3 boys. My older 2 are 13 next month and 10. My you gest is 5 and its so hard to deal with him now that im pregnant. It sucks but im still doing it because i love all my munchkins. Just hoping these other symptoms and stress go down to make 2nd and 3rd trimester much more enjoyable. I love enjoying my pregnancies. But this time around is so difficult. Has any one out there carried twins and do u think it got easier? Or am i gna stay miserable? I already cant follow the diet given because i throw everything up but sweets. Stress is high. Everything just isnt as i was hoping this time around. Also...does anyone know if cbd passes thru the placenta? The state i live in takes kids if the placenta has traces of thc. They test the placenta and the mama and baby. So i quit smokin when i found out. But now i wish i hadnt. 🤦 twins yall. Dont get me wrong...ill love and always care for all my babies. But 😲 im in way over my head. Dad walked out too so keep that in mind. None of my kids dads are around. Included a pic of the twins ultrasound. They share a placenta but are in 2 separate sacs. Dr said they are identical so now i wait for the 10th to see what they are if they can see. ❤