My bf won’t let me get a vibrator?*update

ANOTHER UPDATE 😂😂

I’m very upset. I found one online 45% off and it comes with 4 free items. There was some stuff for him and some for me. I tried convincing him to let me get it since it would be so cheap and he’d get some free stuff. Anyways, he got really stern and said “we wouldn’t need each other anymore. Just drop it.” And I didn’t even know what to say. So I guess that is that. I guess.

**** UPDATE******

So we finally talked about it and he straight up said he doesn’t want me to get one. I brought up the porn and he said he’s trying to stop for me since I told him it made me uncomfortable so I shouldn’t get this since he’s trying to stop. (Mind you I’ve been saying for 3 years now I hate him watching porn and he just now is saying he’s trying to stop) Idk what to do. I don’t feel comfortable going against him and getting one Bc he’d find out. We live in the same house and share the same bed. I feel stuck. I told him I’d only use it when he’s not in the mood and she still said no. Then denied sex that night, and all I could think in my head was, I could’ve used that and went to bed and both of us would be happy. Idk what to do at this point

So I asked my bf if he’d be fine with me getting one, even told him he could come with me to pick one out. He keeps saying he doesn’t know if he’s comfortable with it but get this... HE MASTERBATES TO PORN ... I told him I didn’t like that and he’s never changed. So I figured, if he can watch porn and masterbate then I can get a little vibrater that makes me feel good. He was acting all weird over text then I get home and ask if it’s ok and he said “I don’t want to talk about this right now. Maybe later” who is in the wrong here? Wtf. I’m angry and I’m drinking cause of it so sorry if my message doesn’t make sense 😂☠️