I need reassurance

Girls. I’m 7 months pp and I had severe postpartum depression after my son. For the first 4-5 months. I finally get alittle better lately. But today I broke down. I cried and cried. I get tired of sitting at home with a baby everyday. I’m tired of washing bottles changing diapers listening to crying. Sometimes I hate to say I miss my life but I do. I had my son at 19. Im 20 now. I got pregnant 4 months after I graduated high school. Sometimes I miss my life with friends. I miss having girls to talk to I miss having friends. I miss going out when I want to and I miss just the me time. I love my son. He’s the biggest blessing I ever had in my life. But sometimes I still break down and miss life before this. I hate to admit that. I don’t want to be judged for feeling that way. I tried to talk to my bf about it. All he said was “your son is your number one now and I’m sorry you feel that way.” That didn’t make me feel much better. I understand he’s my number one. I just need reassurance that this feeling is and can be normal.