I want this baby out NOW

I’m 34+1, I have polyhydramnios gestational diabetes and depression that is getting worse. I was managing it well until my GD diagnosis, being able to eat what I wanted was the only thing getting me through this pregnancy. I have not enjoyed a single second of this pregnancy, but am so so grateful to have this opportunity. I hate moaning about it when there are people out there desperate to be pregnant. I feel so selfish, but I want my girl out now. Like right this second. She’s already a big baby (already bigger than many GD babies at full term) and I am going insane. I cry every day, spend all my time in bed because I just want to sleep each day away. I cannot cope anymore. Just needed a rant. Thanks x