Really bad anxiety and suicidal thoughts..

My anxiety has been super bad lately. There’s not a waking second I don’t just have intense crippling anxiety running through my veins. I’ve also been feeling so horrible, about everything, I’m starting to think I have depression. Usually I’m a very positive, optimistic person but lately it’s just been all grey skies. I was taking a bath the other day and felt like I wanted to sink under the water and never come back up. I did go under the water and held my breath for as long as I could. I don’t know what to do. I’ve tried everything. All the things that usually cheer me up just don’t anymore. Nothings working. 😞