I’m so Nervous

The waiting is killing me! Had my blood work on Monday and my Estradol level was only at 84 so pretty low. They increased my dose and told me to come back Friday for an ultrasound. I’m on stim day 6 and still no symptoms no bloating no cramping nothing. I don’t feel like anything I growing. Iv requested and early ultrasound and more blood work and they flat out refused. They said I’ll most likely have to order more medications and I don’t have anymore money for medications I’m drop dead broke. My anxiety is so high right now I don’t know how to handle it. Trying to remain positive but Iv Likley lost 20 grand I might be able to get back 10 grand but not sure. Either way I lost 10 grand.