Update marriage advice

I thought I should update my last post.

My husband told me last weekend he doesn’t want to be with me anymore and is waiting on our daughter to get older to get a divorce. She’s 4 months old right now.

He told me he wants a divorce for the first time when she was 6 weeks old. After she was diagnosed with RSV and my best friend had a still birth. He refused to go to the funeral with me and called me a bad mother for taking her a dress to wear to her sons funeral when she was sick. I was gone for maybe 45 minutes. He was with her. But he went to one of his employees fathers funeral a couple of weeks ago because someone had to be there for her from work. He told me he didn’t want to go to my friends baby’s funeral and I could deal with it myself.

Anyway. Ever since he said that when she was 6 weeks he will go through moods. Sometimes he hugs me and tells me he wants it to work. Other times he says he hates me and makes me feel like I’m a burden. I want my daughter to grow up with a positive childhood and I don’t even know how to make that happen anymore.

I should add that I had 3 miscarriages and multiple chemical pregnancies. I took clomid to get pregnant. We both wanted it. He was distant the whole pregnancy. I actually haven’t heard him say “I love you” in 6 months. When I was giving birth he never said it. He told me I did a good job and then complained about the bed he was sleeping on. He actually told me I didn’t need a push present when my friend asked what he was getting me.

I know I’m not innocent in this situation. I was greatly depressed before I was pregnant this past time. I felt so happy until this happened. My baby girl is perfect. And I’ve waited years for her. She deserves a perfect life. I want it to work with my husband. But I don’t know how.