Sudden news, needing prayers

I’m in need of prayer, I’m currently 39 weeks pregnant and just found out my baby boy is going to be born with hydrocephalus. I’m also not going to be able to deliver him at my hospital which is 15-20 minutes from my home and I’m going to have to have a c-section alone without a support person 😭 in a hospital an hour away. I’ve been crying non stop since I found out, mostly because of anger. They just caught the hydrocephalus on a ultrasound on Sunday when I’ve been in and out of l&d for the past month with horrible contractions😡. I was induced early for my January 2019 baby and that was the plan for this baby but they stopped checking his growth at 32 weeks. My son stopped growing at 35 weeks. I’m just praying for my son to be okay and for us to come home fast after all is said and done. I feel like a failure for not fighting enough for him and it tears me apart. I’m sorry for such a long post I just had to get it all off my chest because I’m not telling my family about my son till I’m home and ok with people being able to see if, my family is judgmental. I’m praying for all you mommas and for our babies to come home safely and stay healthy during this pandemic 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼