I've been thinking

What if I got to have my baby ? What would life be like after I had baby ? Well I've noticed groups on groups of step parents supports . But weres the groups were mums talk about how the father didn't wanna be there ,or how she FEELS letting another man help her take care of her kid/kids ? Cuz honestly I imagine my life if my peanut was here and I feel like I might of felt guilty letting another take that roll when its supposed to be the father job . Just curious