Any advice on 69?

I weigh around 215 and my husband is about 180ish. I am 5'6 and he is 5'8, so he is only taller than me by a little bit.

I have a hard time holding my weight up if I am above him and whether or not he is above me or I am on top, 69 is so hard for me to do/get comfortable with/ enjoy.

How do you give proper oral to an upside down hard on penis in your mouth going towards your jaw and basically forcing jabbing under your tongue the whole time?

I always feel so uncomfortable like I am going to suffocate him or like he will suffocate me, especially when I am above him or he is above me. Urg...

I've really tried and he really wants to do it so badly. I want to try it some other way. I just need some good suggestions to make it doable/likeable for me, so any advice?

He's willing to try anything at this point to make 69 work. He is literally fine with doing it either way me on top or him on top.

We've tried laying on our sides, everything. I'm so frustrated and he just hates it when I don't want to try because of his jabbing hard peepee in my mouth upside down. 😖

I try so hard to be comfortable while we do it but it's so difficult for me to just do it and stop thinking so hard or being selfish about the discomforts I experience.

I just want to make him happy, he loves the idea of us giving one another pleasure and not just oral with only him on me/ me on him.