Help! Trigger Warning- Sexual abuse survivor

Trigger warning

As a child, I had an older friend. I was 6 she was 13. She abused me from those ages til 11 and 18. I don't remember most of it. We are still neighbor I am 19 now and she's about 26. I tried to tell my therapist about it and was made to give police her name. They won't do anything further unless I say I want to go to court. I do not want to. I want to just heal from it i don't want to stir anything up as we're family friends. I'm very paranoid she'll find out I told them her name I didn't know I didn't have to I felt very pressured. My therapist told me to think of other children especially since I am a mandated reporter at a child care facility. I felt guilty then and selfish. Please tell me, should I stop avoiding my therapist? I haven't been seeing her since january. Should I get a new therapist? I can't really handle this pain anymore but I cannot take it if her family finds out what happened hell will break loose I don't want her mother marching over here. It's so scary. I kept this secret for so long. Now I need to heal from it and now the cops are on my case calling me. Please help.