I have been sexually active since i was 15yrs(I’m 20 now) I HAVE NEVER ORGASM (or if i did I don’t have any idea of how that feels). I sometimes cry alone because I want to experience a climax and I think I can’t have one.I had masturbate, had oral sex, fingering etc. I’m desperate at this point. I’m good at making my boyfriend cum but I simply can’t (he does give me pleasure but I can’t let myself go)

How does an orgasm feels?

Please help