i want BFP so badly :(

Hi ladies.. i am very upset right now.. took first round of clomid and had no side effects of it just getting acne for the last two days (neck breakout completely) and minor AF like cramps... AF due 11/15 and i want to take some sleeping pills so that this tww time pass quickly... I just want BFP.. and if it get BFN i knw i am gonna cry like mad. what to do? I do lots of house work but all the time my mind couldnt relax i am always thinking about having a baby :(