Fingering your own butt....

So my boyfriend has fingered my butt probably like 5 times but only 2 times did i enjoy it enough to go longer than like 30 seconds. So i was masterbating the other day and decided i try doing it to myself just to see if i can get myself to enjoy it more, bc i want to eventually enjoy it every time like i did those two times. And since we’re in isolation its gonna be a while till i see my bf anyway so thats why i decided to do it myself.

Is this weird??? I felt really weird after trying it ....