Miscarriage first pregnancy

After two painfully long years of TTC, we FINALLY got pregnant. Now, a little over a week later, I am in the process of miscarrying. It’s not as physically painful as I thought it would be... I was only 5.5 weeks... but it sure feels like this miscarriage is never going to end. I’m tired of bleeding and waiting for the “tissue” to pass. Tissue... that’s what the doctor keeps saying. In my mind all I can think is that my baby is slowly leaking out of my body, the body that was supposed to nourish and protect it. My due date was December 3rd. The baby I’ve always wanted was supposed to arrive during my favorite time of year, and right between holidays. Now, the holidays will feel empty this year, and probably all the years to come.

I’m not ashamed to talk about it. In fact, I’m okay talking about it, but what bothers me is the way people are reacting. Their reactions of not knowing what to say, and long, awkward pauses between sentences, dragging it on is making it worse. It’s not my job to comfort you during my tragedy. You’re supposed to say something to the effect of “I’m sorry for you loss, that is terrible” and if you’re so inclined to - offer support that may or may not be politely rejected.

I’m ready for this nightmare to be over.