Husband cancer diagnosis

I’ve made multiple posts about this previously and probably will continue to, as this entire thing is always on my mind 24/7.

His cancer is incurable and extremely rare and it’s a sarcoma.

He’ll be starting a chemo pill for six weeks and from a recent scan, he may have a spot on his lung now.

I feel like something is wrong with me because I can’t cry. I’ve shed some tears, but I have like CRIED.

I have always had trouble expressing my emotions and I don’t like crying in front of people. But I also feel like my husband is expecting me to cry all the time too and I just can’t. I don’t want him to feel like that means I don’t love him, because I do. I do everything around the house since he can’t from his surgeries and limited mobility to walk.

We also have a 3 year old and I feel like I need to keep it together for her. Cause I’m going to be the one taking care of her and him because he’ll probably be very sick from this chemo medication.