Am i getting upset over nothing?

I am about to have a baby with my boyfriend. i’m due any day now. my boyfriend has been working all day during the week. he leaves at 5am and doesn’t get home until after 8 (currently where he’s working is 2 hours away he travels for his job sometimes)

and him working is not what i’m upset about at all. obviously. its the fact that it’s the weekend and he has weekends off. So I was excited to spend time with him. finally have some human interaction. i’ve been so alone all day during the week. and I can’t do much since were all on lock down. well last night he told me he’s leaving in the morning and going fishing with his friends. and I didn’t mind I said okay can you be home for lunch? and he said “no because were going over an hour away”. he was up and left at 5 this morning.

it’s now dinner time and he still isn’t on his way home.. i’m going crazy i swear.. i’ve gathered all the baby stuff and got everything around so there is nothing left of that to do. I find myself emptying her diaper bag and refilling it just because i’m so bored. I’ve been taking this lock down seriously especially since I will have a newborn any day now and i really want us both to be as healthy as possible for her. and with him fishing with his friends who are constantly hanging out at large gatherings makes me angry. I say things to him like “you have no idea who they have been around” or “he literally just posted that he was at a fire with a bunch of other people” it really makes me mad. I told him today that i’m actually beyond upset with him that he left me home while he goes and does whatever fishing with his friends. he says he keeps his distance with his friends while fishing and blah blah blah. but it’s not just that it’s the fact I wanted to spend time with him today. and no I can’t.

I want to just break down and cry. i’m beyond upset at him right now and maybe i’m just over thinking everything. I don’t know. i’m worried about his health. i’m worried he’ll bring something home to me, i’m worried about our baby. i’ve had so much time to think since i’ve been alone for so long.