I Am So Exhausted! UPDATE

UPDATE...

So after reading you guys comments, I realized that you all are right, fr. I am just holding it off and accepting a life I dont deserve.

I am a former foster kid, I have no family, and I do not speak to any of the former foster families I have lived with.

But I know there are options such as shelters. So I am beginning the long process of phone calls. You guys yall wouldn't believe the amount of people that have said no already, due to the virus and just being full. But I wont stop because you guys are so right, I really dont deserve this, and I need to accept that he is not going to change. Wish me luck please. 💔.

My Boyfriend at this point of 7 and a half viciously long months, can not stop creating issues and arguments. 😔.

He cheated on my with my best friend not to long into our relationship, and I made the choice to forgive him. He then was texting this girl constantly, even though he was telling me he was not. Later I found out he was not only still texting her after I warned him for a 3rd time, but also texting a stripper he met in the club a while back, asking her for lap dances, in our new apt. 😕

At this point I just really dont know what to do.

Anyways during our never ending arguments he has came to the conclusions of fine I will just erase my social media, so at this point he has no social media. He likes to make this seem like it's my fault of course. 😌

Tonight while we are sitting here watching TV, I recieved a fb notification from an Arabian male, and this pissed him off. He kept questioning me, and finally I started fighting back. I told him its not fair that I cant have male friends, because I have been nothing but loyal despite his unfaithfulness. He said he doesn't give a f ,and why do I need to accept it. 😟

I have thought about this over and over, should I just delete fb, should I really not accept any Male request?

But I just dont think it's fair to me, because I have zero interest in cheating on him.

I also keep hearing this ridiculous statement going around that all men are cheaters these days, and to just be grateful for what we have.

But I just cant help bit think that's not true.

😖

Can anyone please shed some light on this situation.

All advise is welcome. I'm just at a complete loss rn.

😩