It’s over a year officially

We’ve been officially “trying” for over a year now.

There was a few random months we tried before, but this is the 13th official month and I’m due for my period in 2 days. I’m dreading it. I’m getting so depressed. We have been trying to not put pressure on ourselves but said we’d see someone to get everything checked out if we made it to the one year mark. With everything going on in the world we can’t.

Every month my body tricks me into feeling like something is different, like this is my month, like I’m finally pregnant. I get nauseous before my period, I pretty much always have, and of course sore breasts. Every little twinge in my stomach must be round ligament pain Or implantation cramping.

It wouldn’t be so bad if my mind & body didn’t play tricks on me like this, I’m just frustrated and needed to vent.