Did I push my boyfriend away

Samantha

Back story... weve been together 3 years and weve lived in our house about 2 years. I quit my job, left my family, and moved to another state. We had a miscarriage right before we moved. About 7 months later we were pregnant again. That's when I found messages to other women. He claims it was never physical but I dont believe him. I lost the babies about a month later.

He wont take pictures with me. He pushes me away in public if i try to hug him. Hes had drinks alone with women.

He says I nag him and I'm controlling. I "nag" him to do stuff like cancel a gym membership hes never used in the past year. I'm controlling by checking on him when he says he will be home at a certain time and doesnt show up.

He says I'm lazy but I work a fulltime job too on top of taking care of the house. The cooking. The laundry.

I'm still trying to understand what I've done wrong or to deserve to be treated like this. I let him know I feel insecure and I think hes cheating. And now... I'm moving out.

I want to say I dont deserve this but he seems to think I do.

Ps. I've never been unfaithful.

His sister has been downright nasty with me and he doesnt tell her it's not ok. And I didnt engage in her rage texts.