My heart 💔

I feel like my heart just dropped. I feel so lost. I’m so sad. Heartbroken. I wanna cry, I just wanna let all my tears out. This guy I’ve been dating for the past four years has to go through a “traditional wedding” back in his country. He doesn’t want to, but he doesn’t want to disappoint and upset his parents. He said when the time happens he’s going to be so sad and heartbroken too. He asked if this happens if he would like to remain as friends? I said yes, it was the first thing that came out. I don’t think I can. I’d be too hurt.

What do I do to get my mind off things? With this whole coronavirus quarantine shit going on I feel like this is even harder. Any suggestions?