Second chance at 40+

I want to believe in happy endings this time around. It is 2 weeks to my 42nd bday. It has been almost a year to the day the baby boy dream was taken away from me, i had just entered 2nd trimester this time last year. Now out of the blue I am pregnant again, after I cried for months, after we have given up. Yes, I am still scared and dreading the genetic testing call, but this time I want to stay positive and allow myself to dream this pregnancy is a normal and healthy child, a miracle gift for xmas. Praying and hoping and believing please please please. And sending baby dust to all