Boyfriend is depressing me

So before this coronavirus. Everything was going good. I worked full time so did my partner, i had driving lessons booked in, started doing my diploma and everything finally started to feel positive. Anyway my partner got fired a day before the lockdown and since then he has just been home playing console or watching tv. Im working 45 hours a week. Going home to still have to clean up, still have to cook, still have to run around like an idiot. And then he has cheek to shout at me because i was grumpy.

In the whole 27 years of my life i have never felt so exhausted and i have in the past been depressed and done suicidal attempts. But this has been the worst feeling ever. All this has actually made me hate my boyfriend, hate the house, hate working.

Like i know he may feel depressed been out of work but he expects me to still work extra so can afford bills and still wants me to cook and take it through to him.

I cant afford time off work as have all the house bills to pay, cant afford medication, cant even afford food. I have become so bitter and hateful.